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Jan. 10th, 2021 08:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stardust_rifleI'm thinking about the kinds of queerness that I like to see explored in fiction, and I keep coming back to this fucking Jrock Omegaverse fanfiction and one character from it in particular- Mitsuki.
(a note- in this post, i will be using the term "venusexual" to refer to omegas who are attracted to other omegas. this is a term i made up for my own omegaverse aus, also, i will be using the word "transmasculine" to refer a "trans-alphan"? identity.)
In the fic, Mitsuki is portrayed as an omega who's exclusively into other omegas, but he's set apart from the other venusexuals in the fic with his behavior- he is repeatedly and explicitly compared to an alpha when it comes to the behavior he tries to emulate, he uses heat suppressants during his eventual boyfriend's heat (which the other O/O pair does not do), and a few comments use "trapped in the wrong body" language to refer to him.
This, to me, seems to give off transgender/genderqueer vibes, but his story isn't about that. It doesn't really "clear up" anything regarding his identity. He's simply allowed to exist in the story, taking on socially alpha roles, and his story is about simply finding his happiness, which isn't associated at all with discovering whether he's "really" hard butch or transmasculine, but finding a community who accepts him for who he is.
I find this to be more personally fulfilling than any sort of queer narratives that are focused on identity and not experience.
Anyways, this was a hell of a lot of words to say "I like ambiguous queerness".
(a note- in this post, i will be using the term "venusexual" to refer to omegas who are attracted to other omegas. this is a term i made up for my own omegaverse aus, also, i will be using the word "transmasculine" to refer a "trans-alphan"? identity.)
In the fic, Mitsuki is portrayed as an omega who's exclusively into other omegas, but he's set apart from the other venusexuals in the fic with his behavior- he is repeatedly and explicitly compared to an alpha when it comes to the behavior he tries to emulate, he uses heat suppressants during his eventual boyfriend's heat (which the other O/O pair does not do), and a few comments use "trapped in the wrong body" language to refer to him.
This, to me, seems to give off transgender/genderqueer vibes, but his story isn't about that. It doesn't really "clear up" anything regarding his identity. He's simply allowed to exist in the story, taking on socially alpha roles, and his story is about simply finding his happiness, which isn't associated at all with discovering whether he's "really" hard butch or transmasculine, but finding a community who accepts him for who he is.
I find this to be more personally fulfilling than any sort of queer narratives that are focused on identity and not experience.
Anyways, this was a hell of a lot of words to say "I like ambiguous queerness".
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Date: 2021-01-11 06:21 am (UTC)I was just talking with my friend about how we find the majority of trans (and ND) headcanons really offputting b/c those headcanons are so often forced to exist in a shipping context exclusively, which ends up with a lot of attention being drawn to "is a person who is xyz attractive to others" as a core conflict. And I've just never been about that as a trans person. My gender or lack thereof is my business, first and foremost, y'know? So yeah, I also definitely prefer writing queer-adjacent narratives without getting bogged down on whether or not it's an one-to-one allegory, I write a lot of polynormative stuff and gender-indifferent stuff b/c that is the shape of conflict I'm interested in. I don't really need to dwell on the conflict of whether someone approves of their partner's gender or identity, I take it as a given that they do or else they wouldn't have kept dating.
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Date: 2021-01-12 04:55 pm (UTC)My whole relation to the trans/ND headcanons that exist in a shipping context is mostly dependent on whether it's a pairing of two trans/ND characters and their relationship to each other (in which case I'm very strongly interested in it) or if it's a trans/ND person slash a cis/NT person, in which case it's a lot more complicated.
My feelings on the matter can largely be boiled down to "It can be done in a way that's super cathartic for me, personally, but this is rare. It can also be done in a way that makes me want to crawl out of my skin and die, but this is also rare. Most of it simply comes down to just being boring and milquetoast and Not Worth My Time" so I guess I agree with you?